I am the mother 4 beautiful children. Out of the 4, my second born, Shemar, passed away a little over six (6) years ago at the very tender age of 3 1/2 years old. Shemar was very ill during his time here on earth, but fought a good fight! We are coming up on what would have been his 10th Birthday on October 30th.
In memory and celebration of Shemar, I thought that I would share with you what I wrote about Shemar that was included in his funeral program on May 30, 2003. (Some of you may have read this already).
Shemar: October 30, 1999-May 22, 2003...Rest In Peace Baby!!!
What Can I Say about Shemar?
There is so much to say..... Shemar was one of God's little angels sent from heaven. He has touched the hearts and minds of so many. Shemar has shown such incredible strength to have endured all that he has in his short but sweet life. There were times when I felt like things were getting too hard for me to bear and I really felt giving up. But then I would think about the strength my baby had and I'd say, "How dare I think about giving up when he's fighting for his life every day and he's just a baby - my baby". Shemar was truly an inspiration to me, just watching him go through so much. From the time he was born until the moment he took his last breath, he fought for his life. He had such a strong will to survive. Shemar was nothing short of a miracle and God chose me to be his mommy. I feel so honored and priviledged for that. Thank you, Lord!
Shemar and I had a special connection with one another. And although he couldn't speak verbally, we had our own way of communicating. And his eyes, they were truly the window to his soul... I mean they spoke to me. And when I looked into his eyes, I could almost read his mind. He had such sweet eyes. Shemar had this special way that he looked at me, in that it would truly melt my heart and fill me with so much joy. Shemar would look at me like no one else ever had before. His eyes were filled with so much love. Each time I was with him he made me feel like I was the only other person in the world - no one else existed or even mattered. It was just him and me; I was his mommy and his best friend. When I held him or was just around him, I would feel the love pouring out of his soul and into my heart. It was the most amazing and indescribable feeling, one that I'll never forget.
I knew that if I had missed a few days of visiting him at the hospital, that I was going to get it and I did. As soon as I got there and he realized that I was at his bedside, he would start swinging at me. He couldn't talk but his expressions said it all. He was a feisty one! But then he would get over it and start looking at me with such sweetness in his eyes, expressing to me how glad he was that I was there. And it was nothing but love for the rest of our visit.
Shemar will be sorely missed. His sweet angelic face and his loving soul. But I know that he's up in heaven now ~ smiling down on us. And I know that he's able to do now what he was unable to do here on earth; walk, talk, play, sing, etc. and that brings me comfort. I know that he's with Jesus and all of the other little angels.
"Mommy loves you Sweetie and I hope to see you again someday."
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